Can I slow down, Please!

Last week was a very busy week for Dan and I. Dan took a recruite down to Fargo on Monday night and was able to go out with Kurt and Lucas, who are a few of his friends that always go out with him when he is in Fargo. Dan came back Tuesday just in time for us to meet with the realitor who is working on the papers for the house that we are buying in Dickinson. Wednesday I left for Fargo to do some training. I was able to stop in Mandan and see my little girl for a little while before I headed to Fargo. Thursday night I was able to go out to Red Lobster with Thomas. Thomas is a friend that I met in college and we have stayed in touch. It is a ritual that we go to Red Lobster everytime that one of us is back in Bimarck or in Fargo. I had a great time visiting with Thomas!! After that I went to see Kurt as he was watching the Twins game at Buffalo Wild Wings. I was able to have a beer with him and some of his friends, but we didn't get a lot of talking in due to the game!! Friday I came home after training.
We have had a busy weekend. Dan was able to come back to Bismarck and do Color Guard for the big National fishing tournament. The biggest highlight of the weekend was that Dan was able to go fishing with one of the pro fisherman on Saturday morning. They caught a ton of fish and Dan was like a little boy when he got home!! We also went to the final weigh in on Saturday and Dan did Color Guard again. It should be on TV in November, I will psot when it is on!!
I am heading back to Dickinson tonight and Dan will come back tomorrow with Mattie. We are able to have her in the apartment with us, which makes me very happy!! This week will be busy again, but I can't wait to go to Nashville on Thursday for Laura's wedding!!!

One down!

Well Dan and I have survived a week of living together!! We have done very well with each other is such a small space!! Work has gone very well. I have met a lot of people in a short time, but everyone has been very helpful. We are going back to Bismarck tonight to see friends and family, and of course the dogs!! I was in Bismarck on Thursday for training, so I was able to see my little girl!! Thanks to mom & dad for giving her a haircut!!
Next week is a new adventure. Dan will be in Fargo on Monday night and then I go Wednesday and stay until Friday for training. Dan said he is happy that I moved to Dickinson, just so we could go back to our old schedule of seeing each other!!!
I am getting SO excited to go to Nashville. I will leave on Thursday, October 2nd and come back on Sunday the 5th. I can't wait to see Laura and be a part of her special day!!
Not much else going on here, we will show the house again on Sunday to a couple who has already looked at it, wish us luck!! I will keep everyone posted about how things are going!!

The first day!

It was an adventure, but I am here and things are going well. I was officially done at PATH on Monday. It was an emotional day for me, but I know I will see everyone soon. I came to Dickinson on Monday evening and after a night of train horns and NO sleep I came to Stark County Social Services and started my day. Unfortunatly the stress got to me and I ended up with a horrible migraine that landed me in bed after work. It was a busy day of learning new things, but everyone is very helpful. I am adjusting to a schedule of 8-4:30 and I like that. Our Comp time is great! For every 1 hour worked over 40 hours we get an hour and a half. They do not like us to work more that 40 hours which is great!!! There will be a lot of adjustments to make, but I am happy with what I am doing.
Dan and I are loving the time together. We actually had supper together for the first time last night and got to talk face to face about our day. We are excited to be moving sometime in November to an older house that we will be fixing up in time!! I think that is all for now!!

"We will be just fine"

These are five words that my husband says to me at least once a day, if not more. I have always been a very anxious person, but lately, it has gotten bad. The transition to Dickinson has been a hard one to take on. I am leaving so much.

*First and foremost, my parents. I have never been too far from home and that has always been a security for me.

*Second, I feel like I am leaving my brother. I know it is just a plot and a headstone, but to me it is still a comfort to know that I can stop anytime.

*Last but not least, is my job. The work has been tough and there have been a lot of times that I have felt that I just can't do it, but it is the people that I have became close to that have helped me through. It the social work field, it is your coworkers that help you through and become family, because they know exactly what you are going through.

"We will be just fine" is sometimes not a comfort. I have a lot of anxiety about leaving everything and starting over. I want to be with Dan, don't get me wrong, but I just have such an empty feeling leaving all I have ever known.

I know we will be just fine, but I just have to go down that bumpy road to get to it.

Happy Birthday Gary!

Today would be my brother Gary's birthday. He would be 29. I can't believe that it has been 13 years since Gary passed away, most days it seems like it was just yesterday. I hope he knows that we are still celebrating his birthday, even though he is not here physically. We love you Gary!!

Why does it have to be this way??

I am not sure why things have to go this way, but I guess they do. I do not want to mention any name, but I have found out tonight that friends can sometimes be better than any family. I have been through a lot in life to make me who I am, and if someone has an issue with that, then I guess they have to deal with it. My parents have been there for me through it all and have been so wonderful through this whole time that Dan and I have been living apart. I sometimes think that they have been a crutch for me all these years. When I think of all they have done for me, I can't believe that they have any more to give. It kills me when others are down right rude to them. They have worked hard there whole lives to build 2 businesses and continue to be very successful. It bothers me when others cut them down and work extra hard not to get along with them. What people don't know is that when they hurt my parents, they hurt me too. It takes a lot for me to get angry, but once I am, it takes a very long time for me to get over it. I believe that is one of my faults and I really need to work on it, but for the time being, the shit list is getting bigger!!